Birthday #32

After several years of miserable birthday experiences, this one was refreshing and amazing. I finally let go of all that I had perceived for myself and my life and gave in to living in the moment. Wonderful things happened. I finally saw my family as integral parts of my life and not just another task to be completed. My fantastic and amazing little girl learned to ride a bike without training wheels. And, I sat and reflected on the year ahead and set goals. In the simplest form, I will be making good on promises to myself this year. The accountability will come in the form of this blog.

1. I will publish something this year.
2. I will exercise patience and joy with my child.
3. I will better my health through the exercise and meditation.
4. I will create harmony in my existence.

These items may seem trite to readers. But, they are indeed, great obstacles in my current life.

I am not a great parent. I love my child with every part of my being. But, still I lack the patience to be really good at parenting. I want to be the kind of parent that teaches her to make messes while learning, but I am not. I am the kind of mother who is exhausted at the end of the day. And, I make deals to get her to bed on time. This is the year of redemption for me. I will find time to be interested in Brownie meetings and I will get to most of her dance rehearsals. And, I will not tell her what great pains I took to leave work early to do so.

I will make a difference to me.